Surely you can’t think that I’m a hussy? I’m very particular these days after Adam. Wait? Now, you believe that I’m fickle? Well, I can assure you that both traits were defined by a man who found it difficult to communicate with a vivacious woman such as myself.
I blame Yudi for much of my dilemma early on. Sure, most humans blame their creators, or rather, parents, for their miserable existence. But to be fair, I was the first woman ever made and I call dibs on my creator being the most royal pain in the ass with understanding women.
Yudi wholeheartedly thought I should be subservient to such a fickle, territorial, Neanderthal. The nerve of him! I was Adam’s equal. It’s as simple as that! And Adam should have viewed me as such instead of running away with that seductress Eve. Ugh!
Since Yudi was a god and incapable of possessing the powers of a goddess, I can’t put the full blame on him any longer. He lacks a complete understanding of feminity. I guess that’s what it means to grow up. I can merely speculate since I’m not a human.
I don’t experience the process of growing up since I don’t age. That’s because I am a vampire, destined to walk between worlds where no one will have me. I guess that’s why I made Drake.
It’s strange, really. Yudi made me a companion for his friend Adam, and Adam cast me aside like garbage when he no longer wanted me. To do that to someone is a horrible thing. Which is why I couldn’t ever do that to Drake. He was my first. Not my only creation, of course. There’s Alec. However, I never meant to sire Alec.
As sad as this sounds, if I had the chance to correct my mistake with Alec, I wouldn’t have gone on that walk. I would have let him live his mortal life. But, of course, the gods and goddesses are petty and love watching us all suffer. That’s why I was so drawn to Alec in the first place.
It’s true. I was torn between Dracula and Alec for a while. Who wouldn’t be? Both of them are upstanding men and are quite handsome. However, if it wasn’t for Alec, I may not have realized how much I missed Drake. And now that Alec found his fated mate, I no longer have to feel guilty for loving the fated mate I created for myself.
Drake is my everything. He is the reason for my existence. If Yudi ever did to him what he’d done to my children… Well? Let’s just say I’d rather die daily than live another instant without Drake.
Vampires may not commit suicide. Yudi made sure of that after our first vile, violent spat between each other. I most likely would have destroyed Yudi for smiting my darling Raine if the fates hadn’t intervened and turned me into the first vampire. That is the main reason why I’m glad no one has gone after Dracula, or rather, my beloved Drake.
Lilith has always been a fun character to write about and this is one of the first brainstorms I had while trying to flesh out this character for you in Forever Bound and beyond.
Happy Reading,
Amanda